Hey Allie,
"Your new man got my respect
So if I do call it's just to check
Heard that you alright though
My nigga for life though
It's funny how this life go
We love for a while then a light goes...."
-Wale
Hey its been awhile. We speak cordially but there still isn't a real solid friendship between you and me. It's funny just a few months ago i was so sure i wanted to be with you for he rest of my life but now I am kind of happy with where we are now. We aren't friends but i will always have your back....Know that! I haven't been able to tell you how proud i am with your recent improvements. I don't know if you smile more or even if you are happy but your mom says you have a 3.5 grade point average i know that makes you happy. I'm happy too. No I'm not bragging just reassuring you that i am no longer mad, angry, or bitter. I am finally able to let what we have go and i sort of kind of have you to thank for that. You always told me my heart was somewhere else and it wasn't until i really listened to my heart that i knew it was true. I love you but....I've been in love with HIM it's true. I thought i had everything in you but now i'm starting to see i fell in love with our friendship instead of our relationship. You were someone who i confided in about my darkest times and darkest days when i felt no one else could truly hear me. You used to tell me that i was still in love with him and as usual i have always been quite hard of hearing. Who would've thought losing you would have led me right back into the arms of the one i didn't expect to love me back. you are truly an angel in that aspect. You led me to the light that is him and i truly appreciate it. If it wasn't for you i would have never seen it and i would probably still be harboring my feelings and guarding my heart with a steel door as strong as a bank vault. Somehow when you checked out he checked in and and the numbers matched. My guard has disappeared and i feel.....whole. For once. I don't worry about someone prettier coming along or trailing off into the wrong path...I am actually happy.
Forgiveness is the final form of love.
-Reinhold Niebuhr
This blog was inspired by The Notebook. It may sound silly to some but it has helped me keep the faith that love is real. So i have decided to write my own 365 letters to the girl i let slip between my fingers. Hope you guys enjoy. Always remember if you love them let em go, if they come back they're yours forever.
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